Friday, December 28, 2012

Expect nothing...appreciate everything!

WOW!  What a  year My family and I have had.  To be perfectly honest, Ill be glad to see the back end of it. 

That said, I wanted to just write about although there is bad...there is always good to counteract.

I believe this.

There is ALWAYS someone out there worse off than you...and more often than not theyre happier, hehe.

I feel in this world we forget to just simply STOP and smell the roses.  Something we need to do, not once every now and again but every single day.
Look at the things we often over look.

For instance, to me...
The simple pleasure of sitting on the beach, late afternoon deeply breathing the salty air and watching my children, dog and husband play and run is just simply breathtaking.  The peace, the calm, the contentment. Perfect!

Another.  There is nothing more decadent, indulgent and sensual than biting into a semi-soft chocolate Lindt ball.  The hard shell, cracking and the gooey inside pouing into my mouth.  YUM! Pure pleasure.

Also, the feeling you get when you are with your most favourite people and you are having a huge, big belly laugh.  You know the kind that makes you wheeze, make tears run down your face and your stomach muscles are so tight they hurt...that is awesome.

Flowers...almost everyday My gorgeouse 7 year old son pics a flower for me.  Whether its a perfect gardenia from the neighbors garden (oops...) or a wilted me it makes no difference.  They are all beautiful.  Beautiful because flowers just are that.  Also, because my son gave them to me...he thinks of little things like that and to me thats special.  I put each and every one into a vase.  My house is always full of fresh flowers...lucky me!

Finally...those night i go to bed and that drizzly rain outside starts to pour.  My bed seems so much more snuggly and it feels that little bit sweeter knowing the next day is a day off...and there are no plans! ahhhh...PURE, AWESOMENESS!

Its the little things in life that make life wonderful.  There is so much uncertainty in life (so expect nothing)...but so much beauty (appreciate everything).

Just had to share this positive little thought.

What simple things make you happy?  I would LOVE to hear them...


Friday, December 14, 2012

The benifits of coconut oil!

 About three weeks ago i caught up with a friend I hadnt seen in a while.  I noticed her skin was so super soft and silky.  So much so I had to comment on it.

She mentioned to me that she has just started using 'organic coconut oil' the cooking kind, lol.
I was like "wha...really?!"  she told me that it is such amazing stuff.  She uses it all over her body as well as her face.  She even told me she puts a handful in her hair at night and then washes it out the next morning...excellent hair treatment.

Im so glad she told me.

Well...I had to find out more!  So, I googled the stuff!  WOW, WOW, WOW!!
It really is amazing!  It does SOOO MUCH!
Today I purchased a one kilo bottle and already Ive slathered it onto my body, wiped it through my hair as well as swollowed a spoonful.

As time passes I'll let you know how it goes.

I found some info on this website that I would love to share with you on the amazing benifits...

Use Coconut Oil as a Body Lotion, Beauty Treatment or for Personal Hygiene

1. Age Spots: Apply coconut oil directly to help age spots fade.
2. After Shave: Coconut oil will help heal the skin and is great for razor burn.
3. Baldness: Apply coconut oil three times a day to hair loss areas to support cell regeneration.
4. Birth Marks: Coconut oil will help with healing after laser removal or after an apple cider vinegar treatment to help the fading process.
5. Body Scrub: Mix coconut oil with sugar, rub all over your body and rinse off.
6. Bruises: Coconut oil helps reduce swelling and redness when applied directly to the bruise.
7. Bug Bites: Apply coconut oil directly to stop itchiness and burning and speed up healing.
8. Burns: May help with healing and reduce permanent scarring.
9. Chapstick: Rub a little bit onto lips. Also contains SPF of about 4.
10. Cradle Cap: Rub a teaspoon of coconut oil onto baby’s scalp daily to help eliminate cradle cap.
11. Dandruff: Use 1 to 2 teaspoons of warm coconut oil on the scalp before showering, preferably the night before, covering your head with a shower cap so you don’t stain your sheets.
12. Deodorant: Check out our natural coconut deodorant recipe.
13. Diaper Rash
14. Exfoliater: Mix coconut oil with sugar or sea salt and use all over your body.
15. Eye Cream: Apply coconut oil under eyes to reduce puffiness, bags and wrinkles.
16. Face Wash or Soap: Mix one teaspoon each of coconut oil, olive oil, almond oil, avocado oil and castor oil. Wet face, rub oil in and leave for two minutes, rinse and pat dry.
17. Hair Conditioner/Deep Treatment: Coconut oil makes a great leave-in hair conditioner. Use about a teaspoon starting from the ends of your hair or from the scalp for a deeper treatment and leave on overnight.
18. Hair Gel/Defrizzer: Rub a little bit of coconut oil between palms and scrunch into hair for curly hair or finger comb for wavy or straight hair.
19. Healing: Apply to scrapes and cuts to protect the wound from dust, bacteria and viruses.
20. Lubricant: Very safe personal lubricant but not to be used with latex.
21. Makeup Remover: Remove with cotton bud dabbed with coconut oil.
22. Massage Oil
23. Moisturizer: Can be used all over the body, neck and face.
24. Mole Remover: Apply after apple cider vinegar compress over several weeks.
25. Nipple Cream: For cracked, sore or dry nipples. Can apply coconut oil to cotton ball and leave in bra between breastfeeds.
26. Oily Skin: Apply a pea sized amount of coconut oil underneath makeup or alone to reduce the appearance of oil.
27. Pre-Shampoo Treatment: Great to use on scalp and hair before shampooing. Find out more here.
28. Pre-Shave: Apply coconut oil before shaving.
29. Skin Problems: Coconut oil is great for psoriasis, dermatitis and eczema.
30. Stretch Marks: Coconut oil will help prevent and reduce stretch marks.
31. Sunburn: Rub coconut oil on affected area.
32. Sunscreen: Coconut oil contains SPF 4 and may be used as a sunscreen by people with dark skin.
33. Swimmers Ear: Mix coconut oil with garlic oil and apply a few drops in the affected ear for 10 minutes 2-3 times a day for one or two days.
34. Tattoo Healing and Moisturizer: Coconut oil can help with healing, prevent infection and stop the pigment from fading when used over a long time.
35. Toothpaste: One recipe you can use is mixing coconut oil and baking soda together and dabbing a little onto the toothbrush.
36. Wrinkle Prevention and Wrinkle Reducer: Apply coconut oil directly to wrinkles and sagging skin.

Apply Coconut Oil Topically for Health Problems

37. Acne
38. Allergies/Hay Fever: Rub inside the nostrils for quick relief.
39. Athlete’s Foot
40. Back Pain/Sore Muscles
41. Canker Sores
42. Cellulite
43. Circumcision Healing
44. Decongestant: Rub coconut oil on the chest and under the nose for cold or allergies.
45. Ear Infection: Put a few drops of coconut oil inside the ear twice a day for pain relief and to fight the infection.
46. Genital Warts: Topical application for 6 weeks combined with coconut oil enemas twice a day depending on the location.
47. Gum Disease and Gingivitis: Use coconut oil as toothpaste or rub directly onto gums.
48. Head Lice: Use coconut oil to remove lice after an apple cider vinegar treatment.
49. Herpes: You can apply coconut oil topically and take internally.
50. Hives: Use coconut oil to reduce itch and swelling.
51. Nausea: Rub coconut oil on the inside of the wrist and forearm for upset stomach.
52. Nose Bleeds: Coat your fingers in coconut oil, lie down and put your fingers inside your nose.
53. Pink Eye (Conjunctivitis): Apply coconut oil around and in the eye.
54. Ringworm
55. Toothache
56. Warts, Boils and Cysts

Consume Coconut Oil for General Health and Wellness

57. Breastfeeding: Mums can consume 3 ½ tablespoons of coconut oil per day to enrich the milk supply.
58. Bones and Teeth: Coconut oil helps you absorb calcium and magnesium.
59. Digestion: The natural saturated fats in coconut oil are great for controlling parasites and fungi that cause indigestion and digestion-related problems such as irritable bowel syndrome. It also helps absorb vitamins, minerals and amino acids.
60. Energy Boost: Coconut oil boosts energy and endurance and is great for athletes and those in need of a quick pick-me-up.
61. Fitness: Coconut oil stimulates the metabolism, improves thyroid function, and boosts energy levels.
62. Insulin Secretion and Blood Glucose Utilization: This makes coconut oil great for both diabetics and non-diabetics.
63. Lung Function: Coconut oil increases fluidity of cell surfaces.
64. Vitamin and Nutrient Absorption
65. Weight Loss: The saturated fats in coconut oil control cravings and increase metabolism.

Consume Coconut Oil for Health Problems

66. Acid Reflux/Indigestion: Take coconut oil after a meal.
67. Adrenal Fatigue
68. Allergies/Hay Fever
69. Alzheimer’s/Dementia
70. Asthma
71. Autism
72. Bowel Function
73. Bronchial Infections
74. Cancer: Coconut oil has been proven to prevent colon and breast cancer.
75. Candida Albicans
76. Cholesterol
77. Chronic Fatigue
78. Crohn’s Disease and Inflammation
79. Circulation
80. Cold and Flu
81. Constipation
82. Cystic Fibrosis
83. Depression
84. Diabetes: Coconut oil helps keep blood sugar levels stable.
85. Dysentery
86. Eczema
87. Edema
88. Energy boost
89. Epilepsy: Coconut oil has been found to reduce epileptic seizures.
90. Fever Support
91. Flaky, Dry Skin
92. Gallbladder Disease and Pain
93. Gas
94. H. pylori
95. Head Lice
96. Heart Disease: Coconut oil protects arteries from injury that causes atherosclerosis.
97. Haemorrhoids: Apply coconut oil externally or internally twice a day.
98. HIV
99. Hot Flashes
100. Hyperthyroidism
101. Immune System Builder
102. Irritable Bowel Syndrome
103. Jaundice
104. Kidney Disease
105. Kidney Stones: Coconut oil helps dissolve kidney stones
106. Liver Disease
107. Lung Disease
108. Malnutrition
109. Mental Clarity
110. Menstruation Pain and Cramps and Heavy Flow
111. Migraines: Use coconut oil regularly to help prevent migraines.
112. Mononucleosis
113. Osteoporosis
114. Pancreatitis
115. Parasites
116. Periodontal Disease and Tooth Decay
117. Prostate Enlargement
118. Rickets
119. Skin Problems
120. Scurvy
121. Stomach Ulcers
123. Toenail Fungus
124. Thrush
125. Thyroid Function: Coconut oil can help regulate an overactive or underactive thyroid.
126. Ulcerative Colitis
127. Urinary Tract Infections

Coconut Oil Can Help Pets Too

128. Allergic Reactions
129. Arthritis or Ligament Problems
130. Bad Breath in Dogs
131. Cuts, Wounds, Hot Spots, Dry Skin and Hair, Bites and Stings: Apply coconut oil topically.
132. Diabetes
133. Digestive Disorders such as Inflammatory Bowel Syndrome and Colitis
134. Digestion and Nutrient Absorption
135. Eczema, Flea Allergies, Dermatitis, Itchy Skin
136. Energy
137. General Wellness: Add a teaspoon of coconut oil to your pet’s water bowl or in their food.
138. Hairballs and Coughing
139. Improve Brain Energy Metabolism: Coconut oil will also help decrease amyloid protein build-up that results in brain lesions in older dogs.
140. Regulates and Balances Insulin
141. Sleek and Glossy Coats: Coconut oil also helps deodorize dog odour.
142. Thyroid Function
143. Weight loss
144. Yeast and Fungal Infections, including Candida

Other Uses for Coconut Oil

145. Chewing Gum Remover: Rub coconut oil over chewing gum stuck in hair, leave for 30 minutes, then roll the gum between your fingertips.
146. Goo Remover: Form a paste from equal parts coconut oil and baking soda and apply to the sticky area, let it set for a minute then scrub it off with an old toothbrush or scrubby side of a sponge.
147. Insect repellent: Mix coconut oil with peppermint oil extract and rub over exposed skin.
148. Moisturize and Clean Leather
149. Oil Wood Cutting Boards and Wood Bowls
150. Polish Wood Furniture: Use coconut oil with a little bit of lemon juice to polish wood furniture. Make sure you do a test first.



Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Getting Organised with a Kikki.K workshop

Last December I decided to finally get around to sorting, organising and making our home office 'pretty'.
I tried to do it as low budget as i could.
 I used an old pine desk, as well as a very old pine bookshelf that had been sitting in the corner of our spare room gathering dust (and piles of junk). 
So one week hubby and i got in and finished painting the walls, and then the man inside me LOL, came out.  I pulled out the electric sander, paint gun and got to work.

 Once all done, we brought it in placed the bookshelf on top of the desk.  I had old black gift boxes that I repurposed into storage.  Printed my own labels and here is the end result...

Im happy to say that I was so pleased with the end result.  The room was light airy, fresh and beautiful.  I did most of the decorating with items i had.  Its amazing what a bit of paint can do.
Well, almost 12months on...its still there but just not and tidy...*sad face*
I had all good intentions of being organised and tidy this year but as the months rolled on, the paper piles on the kitchen bench ended up just getting placed on the desk...and after so long doing this im no more organised than i was prior to the makeover *sigh*
Last week I was at Robina town centre walking past of my most favorite stores in the universe.
I go in there and indulge in my fanatises and in total denial that my home office will and does look like that store. doesnt, but one can dream, lol.
All the pretty white and blue boxes, files, paper, pens, diaries, calenders...ahhhhhhhhhhh..........H.E.A.V.E.N!
While I was there I noticed a woman siting down having a one on one consultation.  I also noticed close by a brochure for 'paperflow' workshops.  I asked the shop assistant about it.
I had heard about these before and wanted to do but in my denial thought "ive got it sorted, i dont need to do one of the organised queen"
After talking to the lovely store assistant, I admited defeat and decided I DO need help.
So i booked in for the last workshop of the year.
That was last night. 
 The workshop was a cosy affair.  Just me and 3 other ladies (as well as the professional organiser and shop lady)
we were greeted with either a glass of champagne or sparkling water, and fresh strawberries, tim tams and crackers.
We introduced ourselves to each other and  told each other why decided we needed to be there.
It was an hour workshop which included a handbook and a kikki.k pen.  We also were entitled to 10% discount on the night as well as a one week after the workshop to allow us to go home and work out what we need.
It had some amazing ideas.  Their 6 step paper station is fantastic and I am going to implement it into our home...not just in the office either.
The principles could be applied to almost anywhere in the home.

After it was all done I purchased the 2013 family calender ~ great for organising and planning things individually and as a family.
I also purchased the kikki.k 'peek-a-boo' shopping basket.  it was suggested to leave it at the front door and place everything you need in the car.  All you have to do is pick it up in the morning as your walking out the door and your not searching for things like DVDs, Library books, signed forms for school etc.  As you remember (ideally the night before) place it in the basket. 
Along with the basket I also purchased the 5-tab plastic pocket.  This is also great to place in the basket for the smaller things like shopping list, mail, forms etc that I may need through out the day.  It also fits neatly into my handbag.
So today Im all set and keen to tackel the office.  Miss Mimi is home sick from school today so I am making the most of my time to start planning.
I think the problem I had origanally with my office is that I did all the decorating and put pretty boxes etc around but honestly...didnt realy serve a purpose other than to 'look pretty'.
Now my office will not just look pretty but will also be funtionable.
Today my goal is:
*Revising my notes
*sorting & cleaning office
*Planning what I need exactly to have a properly funtioning office
*making notes for what I need
The goal=
1.Have a fresher, tidier office that I can locate things at an instant
2. Have a smoother running home,  Finances etc.
3. Save money
4. Happy family!
If you ever get a chance to do a kikki.k workshop I would definitly consider it.
I feel it has given me a new lease on organising and will be much, much easier to maintain in the long run.



Friday, October 19, 2012

Ballina Caravan trip with meal plan.

                                                               Happy friday friends!

 Look at my pretty holiday toes...I hate my feet, ugly, ugly, short stumpy feet and toes but i have pretty 'french manicured' toe nails I did my self the night before we left for our Ballina caravan holiday.

Last Saturday we got back home from our wonderful holiday at ballina.  As mentioned in my last post, we went away with my brother, his wife and his delightful daughter, my six year old niece.  It was a mixed bag with the weather.  The first 2 days it was very hot (around 29 degrees) and the 3rd day it was heavy rain & wind, the 4th day was blowy but sunny and warm and the 5th day was nice.  So over all, it was good.

We went in the caravan, but before we left we preped everything so all we had to do was R.E.L.A.X!
As a mum, im in charge of cooking cause we all know that if it wasnt caught that day and cooked on the barbeque, the husband dont cook it.  You know, Im fine with that because I dont mind cooking AND that means husband cleans up, win!  hehe.
Anyway, this time round I thought Im going to be super organised.  My goal was to plan everything we were going to eat BEFORE we left, shop BEFORE we leave and cut up and wrap everything so when it comes time to cooking on holidays its less fuss as possable with the maximum nutrition. This was my kitchen 24hours prior to leaving...
I chopped, seperated, wrapped and packed EVERYTHING before we left.  Even the snacks.  Here is a general run down of the meals we had...
MONDAY... Lunch~ Ham rolls & a bannana (on the road)
                      Snack~ Packet of chips (in the car driving)
                       Dinner~ Mexican burritos

TUESDAY...Breakfast~Bacon and egg burgers, made on english muffins.
                      Morning tea~ fruit
                      Lunch~ Crackers with avocado, cheese and ham
                      Afternoon tea~popcorn
                      Dinner~ Chicken skewers and salad with flavoured rice
                      Dessert~ chocolate

WEDNESDAY...Breakfast~ Pancakes with chopped strawberries, bannana, yoghurt and syrup
                            Morning tea~ Chips, carrot and celery sticks and dip
                            Lunch~ sausage sandwhiches
                           Afternoon tea~ friut and nibblies
                           Dinner~ slow cooked chicken (yes I even packed my slow cooker)
                                    with corn cobbs, baby potatoes and salad.
                           Dessert~ chocolate

THURSDAY...Breakfast~ Breaky wraps (bacon, scrambled eggs, baked beans and cooked
                                            tomato on a flat bread wrap)
                          Morning tea~ Crackers
                           Lunch ~ cheese and avocado and tomato on crispbread.
                          afternoon tea~ popcorn
                           Dinner ~ lamb and veges
                          Dessert ~ marshmallows
FRIDAY~ Breakfast~ Toast/cereal and coffee/juice
                   Morning tea~ yoghurt
                    Lunch ~ sausage sandwhiches
                  Dinner~ Pasta cabonara and salad
                   Dessert ~ Marshmallows

SATURDAY~ Breakfast~Toast/cereal and coffee/juice
                         Morning tea ~ crackers/cheese/chips/fruit (anything we could find to eat in the car
                         for the trip home)
                         Lunch~ we had hot chip sandwhiches.  On the way home we stopped at a little beach
                         Pottsville and bought hot chips, white bread and tomato sauce.  Not real healthy but,
                         hey, we're on holidays!

Saturday night we were home and eating our regular food.  Actually we eneded up with takeaway that night as we got home late and after emptying the caravan, doing 3 loads of washing and putting everything away I justt wanted to put my feet up, have a glass of merlot and have dinner made for me, hehe.
Here are some happy snaps of our holiday...

SERIOUSLY!!! Does it get much better than this??  Me sunbaking watching the kids spalsh in the pool.

This was taken Thursday night.  We went for a bit of a night 4wd drive along a beachy track.  Was fun!

Lying on my towel on the beach...ahhhhhhh.....

Whats a camp/caravan holiday without a fire and marshmallows...?

Chip sandwhiches by the sea..Lovin' it!

GoOdByE bAlLiNa...waiting to board the ferry back home.

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Ahhhh...its that time of year again!

We are in the process of getting ourselves organised for another caravan trip.  Yay! So excited and well and truly overdue.
This time we are heading to Ballina.  I cannot wait. We are heading off for 5 nights and 6 days.  We are heading off with my brother and his wife and their 5 year old daughter.
It's the start of spring and I hope the weather stays as perfect as it has.  Ive been making list {as you can see in the pic} planning and packing.  Today we aired out the caravan and washed all the curtains.  Its been closed up a little too long over winter so its nice to get in and get it ready.
Im in the process of planning meals.  Ive visted many websites for inspiration for example applevalleygirl and
Even though we are caravaning I still enjoy my cooking and having a nice meal with a glass of wine after a long day reading and at the beach.  Im honestly not one for baked beans on toast or sausages on stale white bread for dinner. (although the odd sausage for lunch is good) Even on a budget we can still cook wholesome, tastey, yummy, gourmet meals.  Once ive decided on the final list I will post what Ive come up with. hehe.
Anyhoo...i will update with pics as time goes on...happy spring, all xoxo

Im so excited!!  Ahhhh....just thinking about it makes my body relax.


Monday, September 24, 2012

New beginings...

Hi all...Ok Im playing catch-up today with my blog as Ive had so much going on.  To be honest I havnt had a lot of energy to put into my blog...or anything for that matter.  Its been a hard year this year and I havnt had my mum either as she is still in rehab so Ive also being trying to deal with that and the r est...BUT its all ok.  Im telling myself it will be ok...not perfect.  Far from perfect but its ok. 
Today is officially the first day of the spring school holidays and we are out the backyard, in the pool. 
It is a stunningly warm day.  I have my little neice here and the neighbors little girl, as well as my two.  The four of them are swimming and playing games.  Its nice. After such a long, cold, depressing winter its nice for this day.
Im happy, content and thankful for what I have.
I have the most incredable husband any woman could EVER wish for. My kids are beautiful, loving souls.
im thankful for my homely home and for the joy my family give me.

On that note I want to introduce a new memebr of our family to you all.

Harry is our new baby. After much sadness we couldnt bare the emptiness and the spots where Jojo used to sit.
We decided a few days later to get a new baby, which we did.
Again we went to the animal welfare legue and we were thrilled to discover this little fellow arrived there that morning.
He is a 5 year old male maltese.
He isnt Replacing Jonah but he is defintly filling that big hole.
For about two weeks I tried to let poor Harry in but I think I was still grieving for Jonah.
I just couldnt love him like I did Jonah.
However last week, I had a day home with Harry.  Just him and I.
I think we bonded.  We reached a new level in our relationship. LOL
Now I think Harry and I are great friends.
Im still sad for Jonah but Harry now brings a smile to my face and melts my heart.  He is my new little baby.
He is somewhat smaller than Jonah but so, so cute still.
He has differences to Jonah but alot of simalarities too. 
He too is a gentle little soul.  A snuggly, cuddley little friend.
He is getting used to our family and fitting in nicely.
His tiney little face is just too cute and we welcome our new little baby, Harry with open arms and open hearts.
Welcome Harry...we will have a lovely life together.

Another sad loss for our family!

Oh My!
what a few months we have had.  First the loss of our baby (as my last post explained), then on the 3rd of September we lost our beloved little Jojo (Jonah).  our loyal, loving, almost human like doggy. :(
I wont go into the details of how we lost him but all I will say is that I found him and the circumstances werent nice.  I was devistaed...the whole family was devistated.
Jonah was our dearest baby!  He came everywhere he possable could with us.  He listened to us, knew us and connect with us in every sense.

 We rescued Jonah from the Animal welfare legue back in 2009.  He was only 4 years old then.  He was instantly apart of our family.  Even though he was a little white fluffy dog he was a mans dog, never afraid to do anything.
 He wasnt scared or agressive.  He always seemed to have a big smile on his face and was always so happy.  Even at the park, the biggest, loudest, scariest, agressive dog could come up and jojo just bounced around as if to say "can we play?" totaly obliviouse of the fact that anydog could ever be angry.  He was just always happy and friendly to everyone and everything.  He even loved our neighbors cats, LOL.

Jonah was a little burst of sunshine!

He was my little shadow, my companion and buddy.
Everyone who knew him said he was such a unique, beautiful dog.  Everyone in our neighborhood new him and loved him.  He would go and visit them all and they all loved him visiting.  One neighbor was devistated the day he died and came over sobbing with flowers.

Jonah understood each of us as individuals. I didnt even need a leash for him as he would stick by us and if he did happen to wonder off, we just say 'jojo' and he waould casually wonder back.

We buried him  under a big beautiful tree in our back yard ourside our bedroom window. 
We are still doing renovations in our back yard but when we get to fixing that area we will put a proper little plaque there in rememberance our our awesome little dude.

We, as a family had a memorial service for him and layed flowers on his grave.  We placed a rock there with his collar, bed and bowls, as well as flowers.

JoJo...We loved you more than any pet ever!  You will forever be in our hearts, minds and family.  You were a legend and will always be remembered as our friend and gentle being as well as fun, cheeky and mischieviouse.  We will ALWAYS LOVE YOU!



Thursday, July 26, 2012

One of lifes greatest pains!

Hi all,
Sorry I havnt been back here for a while.  Ive been quite unwell.  You see the sad news is that we lost our little 'suprise' on Monday 2nd July 2012.
I have been on a weird and strange roller coaster of emotions since then.
Let me explain our story...
Sunday1st June, I wasnt feeling the greatest.  I had a headache that had been nagging all day.  I was feeling sick, tired, achy and just unwell.  I put it all down to pregnancy hormones and being away and in the car for too long.

Sunday night around 10pm, i went to the toilet and there I saw the most undesirable thing a pregnant woman could see while pregnant...Blood!
I wiped again thinking it may just be a small amout but no...there was more, alot more. :(
As it was school holidays my kids were still awake.  Trying to hold back the tears I called my husband into our bedroom.  As soon as the door was shut I burst into tears.  He asked what was wrong and I told him.
He tried to comfort me saying things like "it might stop" "cant that happen in pregnancy?" "It'll be ok"
Just like my firt miscarraige...I just knew.  A woman has a strange way of 'just knowing' when we're pregnant and we also have a way when its slipping away.  I sat in bed and, sobbed uncontrollably.
My kids were wondering what was happening but my husband just said it ok and put them to bed.
I took some panadole and my husband told me to get some sleep and we'll see how we are in the morning.
Was he kidding? I tossed and turned all night, my baby was in my thoughts the whole time and each time i fully woke I teared up.

The next morning I woke at 7am.  I went to the toilet and yep...sure enough lots more heavy bleeding...this time accompanied with lots of pain,
My husband wonderfully organised the day off work, dropped the kids at a friends place and drove me to the hospital.
By this stage the pain was getting alot worse.  I had a heat bag for the pain.

When we arrived at the hospital they took me straight in.  Took my details and bloodpressure.  That was all over the place. I felt dizzy and sad.
Once they got me into a bed they took blood test and they needed and they needed a urine sample.
I was ushered down to the toilets with plastic specimen bottle in hand.
As I peeed, I felt a strange sensation.
I looked down and saw a blood clot, then again another much bigger clot right after.  Perfectly round bubble like.

Right there, staring at me in the hospital toilet was what I believed to love!

Weirdly for a moment I was thinking of fishing it out...yep.  Discusting, but at times like this you do think very bizzare things...but then I thought..'ugh, it a public hospital toilet...who knows what I could catch'
I stood there staring at it for while, crying.
I hesitated to flush the toilet but I had to.  When I did, this terrifying thought went through my head..."UGH, I JUST FLUSHED MY BABY DOWN THE TOILET"  I started sobbing again.
Anyway, I cleaned up and pulled myself together.

I walked out of the toilet and handed to specimen jar to the nurse.  She said to me "are you ok?"  I starting to tell her what happened in the toilet but started crying again, I couldnt get it out.  I finally did.  He rubbed my shoulder and told me to lie down and rest.  I hugged my husband and just cried and cried.

I was taken for an ultra sound and was told "there was no visable matter left" {Nice way to talk about my baby, huh?}
After being in the hospital for a few hours my blood test came back too, and said that the pregnancy hormone is still there but dropped dramaticaly since my last blood test (the ones I had the week earlier that appeared to be perfectly fine). 
They sent me on my way home and told me that i must have had a complete miscarraige.  I was told to just go home and rest.

Which I did. 

I layed in bed and slept till dinner time.  When i woke my husband came home with the kids.
We told the kids and they were devistated.
Mis mimi just broke down and cried her little heart out, and Little T just went deathly silent. With a few tears rolling down his cheek.
My babies broke my heart as I know exactly how they feel.
I had no answers, no reasons just cuddles and lots of love.

 We got pizza for dinner that night, rented out 'toothfairy 2' and chilled out.
We had a lazy, chilled out night,  Bedtimes didnt count, nutrition went out the window.  It was all about comfort and healing.  Which as a family we are still trying to do.

We planted a beautiful gardenia tree at our front door in rememberance of our little poppy seed.  (nicknamed as we imagined the tiny size of a poppy seed as the size of the baby...even though it was actually about small fingernail size) Placed at the front door so we can see it everyday.

3 and a half weeks later...this is where Im at.
I thought I was going ok.  I rested for a few days and got back into life.  I was going to the gym, shopping...going about as normal.  As though nothing happend.
Im due to get my next period tomorrow and I feel so yuck.
Im so hormonal, cranky, tired, and emotional.
Im angry, sad and fragile.
I have constant headaches and my body hurts.
Im tired and just want to sleep. 
I want to hide.
I feel as though Ive had a slight delayed reaction with the whole ordeal.  Yesterday i thought alot about my baby.  It realy actually sunk in what happened. 

I have put on loads of weight, got pimples and look anemic.
im constipated.  I feel nauseas 24/7.

Im going to get another check up with my doctor and see a natropath again.  I just feel unwell.

Overall, it just sucks!

I know I will be ok.  I know life goes on and things will ease.  But for now Im just taking life slow.  Being with my family and keeping warm.


Monday, June 25, 2012

Big Hello to all in blog land today.  Im feeling on top of the world.  I have some big, big news.  First of all..I have created a second blog.  I deleted my muffinshmuffin blog as I found I never used it, and recreated a new one....But more on that later.

I wanted to tell you a story... Actually Ive cut and pasted it from my new enjoy the long read...

Our New journey!

I met my wonderful, wonderful husband back in 1996 when i was just 17. We fell in love and we married in November 1998...the Best thing we EVER did! I love that guy!
In 2002, we found out we were expecting our first baby. We were very, very happy. Although we wanted to wait 5 years, once we got that news...all that didnt matter.
All was pretty straight foward. Not feeling too sick, not much in the way of cravings. In April 2002, at 15 weeks pregnant I started spotting.
That sickening, horrorfying feeling in the pit of my stomach came. I instantly broke down and sobbed. I just knew.
A trip to the E.R confirmed the bad news. A long story short, a few days later I was admitted for a D & C and that was the most empty, sad feeling. I cant even begin to explain.

Two months later, when all was settled with my body we got the green light to try again. Right on Cue...we fell pregnant again that month!!
We were very lucky.

At 12.36am Friday, 28th March 2008 {after a 27 hour labour} we welcomed Our beautiful, amazing, precoiuse little girl into the world. That was such a surreal moment.

When our baby girl turned 14 months, We once again we were thrilled to discover bub number 2 was on their way.
At 7.30am Friday 8th February 2005 We met the most amazing, handsome little man. Our son. Our little dude!

For the past 7 years, hubby and I have been tossing up whether we should have another. Weighing up the pro's and cons...well they were kinda equal, so it has been a VERY , VERY hard choice to make. Ever since I was 9 years old I said I would have "3 babies". We knew we always wanted another...we just needed a 'woopsy' to force that decision. LOL.

On saturday 19th May 2012, I got my period...4 weeks later, around the 16th June I was to get my next one. It never came. Sometimes my period can do this. I have been known to be 'late' at times. Sometimes going 5 weeks. But a few more days past and I was getting suspicious.
I told my hubby I was going to get a Home pregnancy test and he said "nah, just wait another week"...are you kidding me!!!???
Once I have my mind set I have to test. This was what I got...

FRIDAY 22nd June 2012 test done at 3.30pm...6 Days late...

So, so feint...I almost thought I was imagining. I had to hold it up to the light and kinda squint to see anything. Hubby told me it was all in my head. He 'claimed' he couldnt see anything. What do you think?

SATURDAY 23rd June 2012 taken at 8am...7 days late

Yep...Im pretty convinced theres a line. Hubby still deny's...but with a silly grin, LOL.

SUNDAY 24th June 2012 Taken at 9am...8 days late.

Ah, yeah...we're PREGNANT! Hubby couldnt deny this. Even though its still not DARK, DARK...there is a line...and that line keeps popping up, ever darker each day.

That makes me 5 weeks pregnant.
{I have to still make a doctors appointment to confirm with blood test, scans etc...I still freak a little with the whole miscarrage thing.}

Ok, so we are having a baby!! A little aprehensive...but alot happy. Not planned exactly, but defintly wanted.

This blog will be a week-by-week diary/journal of our baby bean. I plan to journal what happens as a keepsake for my baby.
For my other two, I did this by hand but with one, ive decided to do it online.

Feel free to follow my, our journey as a family, as we go from 4 and become 5.
Here we go..."

My new blog you can find here! and it's aptly named... "Oh Baby, Baby!".
So our nest is growing from 4 to 5!  Yay!



Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Pizza Capers {part two}

Ok so, Last week I did a blog post on my homemade pizza's.  I said as I made different ones I would post about it.  Well, Sunday night we had friends over for a Lazy, fun catch up.  We actually originally planned to go to the beach and watch the sun set over wine and nibbles but as it turned out it was freeeeeezing, wet and miserable out so I told them to come here, to our home instead where it was warm and cosy.  They still brought their nibblies {cheeses, shaved hams, olives, etc, etc} but I thought seeing we were staying home I would cook sum pizza's for us all.  So along with the ones I posted about last, I also made these two...

1) My take on an Italian favorite...
I have on it...
*Pizza sauce
*cherry tomatoes
*Kalamata olives
*Philedelphia cream cheese
* Fresh  Rocket Leaves (to top)

It is a very simple, basic pizza that ALWAYS seems to cook up so lovely and tastey. Its always a winner. The cream cheese, although a little unusual for pizza is devine. A bit like fetta once cooked.
Next is "pizza roma with rocket & Parmesan...
This has *Red onion
*2 cloves of garlic
*450g minced beef
*6 thin slices of salami, chopped
*140g tomato paste
2 teaspoons of smoked Paprika
* 2 Tblsp chopped fresh oregano leaves
*4 tbspn water
* 2-3 tbspn pinenuts
*Fresh rocket leaves
* freshly shaved Parmesan cheese

Heat Olive oil in a non-stick frying pan.  Add sliced red onion and cook for about 2 mins untill tender. Stiring continually.  Add Garlic, minced beef and salami..  Cook untill beef has changed colour, making sure to break up any large peieces.
Stir in tomato paste, smoked paprika, chopped oregano and water and cook for 2-3 mins. Stirring occationally.  Set aside to cool.
Spoon cooled meat mixture onto the dough evenly and sprinkle with pinenuts.
Bake in a pre-heated oven at 180*C for 15-20 mins.
Serve topped with fresh rocket leaves and parmesan.
*Also nice with 2 tablespoons of olive oil combined with 1 tablespoon of balsamic vinegar...drzzled ove the top...yum!

  To be totaly honest...this was lovely but not my favorite, however my husband couldnt get enough of this one.  I think its a great "man" pizza...LOL.

All these were made, of course on my homemade pizza bases that I gave the recipe for in my last post.

 All ent down very well with good friends and red wine and was topped off with dessert....
Can't forget dessert!


Thursday, May 24, 2012

My Pizza capers  Generally Friday night is Pizza night in our home.  But not just any old pizza, yummy, healthy, wholesome homemade pizza.

I thought seeing it is such a favorite in our home I would do a super quick blog on this.
I make my own bases in the breadmaker.
Heres my pizza dough recipe...
*400ml of water
* 2 tablespoons of Olive oil
* 2 teaspoons celtic sea salt
*  5 cups of bread flour
*  3 1/2 tsp of yeast

Throw all in the bread maker in that order.  Click on the dough setting.  Wait approx an hour and a half.  Once mixed place the ball of dough onto a floured surface, slice in half.  Roll one half into a round pizza shape.  Place onto pizza tray/stone.
 A tip* Roll the dough slighly larger than the tray.  Then roll the edges into the base around the edge to fit the tray its on.  Doing this creates a 'crust' on your pizza.  It rises nicely at it cooks.

Then let it sit for about half an hour to allow the base to slightly rise and thicken.
Then simply place your topping on.

For the first one I pretty much placed on what I could find in my fridge and pantry...
tomato pizza sauce,
Chopped tomato,
sundried tomatos,
red onion,
Very thinly sliced celery,
smoked shaved ham,
fetta cheese and
grated cheese....

The second one is boring yet my kids favourite (sorry about the side pic).  On this i have...
*pizza sauce
*Shaved smoked ham
* grated cheese

I do a few other toppings but I was thinking that as I cook these pizzas I will blog them.

Not very good pics, but with a bottle of red, a side salad and a new release dvd...These pizza's make Friday nights the best!


Monday, May 21, 2012

My rustic garden

HaPpY MoNdAy all!  I thought I would start the week off with a pretty blog about my new garden spot.  I found this georgouse little bench seat on ebay for a very, very cheap price...and I won! yay!

Isnt it just toooo cute??? It has such a rustic, homely, french farmhouse feel to it.

I had the perferfect spot for it outside my dining room window. I still need to tidy up around this are and I also want hubby to build a wooden screen to hide his 'beer fridge', not exactly somthing i want on display next to my pretty garden.
I had a ton of old terracotta pots and an old cast iron pot dug half way under dirt in the back yard where 'polly' our little chicky used to be.
Here is the result...

Below is One of my most favorite flowers EVER...daisies! Forever timeless and so homely.

an old tin with herbs, with my basil behind...

Little T and miss Mimi helped me, of course to plant.  They even wanted their own little plants that they grew from seed.  The first one is little T's {I just love that he's written 'daisy on his chalky part}...

...and the 2nd is miss Mimi's...
I'll update in a few weeks how they are growing.

 Below, my thriving mint.  It smells devine!

This is the old cast iron pot, growing my Italian parsley...cute huh?

Simply theraputic!  To see flowers and green outside my window with the sun dancing through the leaves gives me a huge smile everyday!

Happiness flutters in the air whilst we rest among the breaths of nature. ~Kelly Sheaffer